Looking back now

Looking back on the whole situation now, it almost seems like a very bad dream.  But I know that it was real.  It's just really weird to think about how everything happened at one time.  Shawna's death, dad's surgery, my parent's financial problems, not to mention other things (like taking my comprehensive exam during all this and ending a relationship with someone that I cared a lot about).  Since that time, God has moved GREATLY!  More than I could have ever imagined!  But this didn't just all happen over night, even though it feels that way.  But right after I wrote the previous post, I was at my lowest.  I was a point where I consantly questioned why God was doing all this and finally told Him that I couldn't take anymore.  I was broken, hurt, confused, worried, scared and lonely.  But it's like I said the other night in small group and to some very close friends, I was at my lowest point and that's when God stepped in and amazed me.  I really had thought that He had given up on me.  But that's when my mom was healed.  Her vision was restored.  She had a stroke in November and her vision was damaged.  But God truly healed her!!!  And not just that, but her spirit and attitude had even improved.  After that, God worked out some financial stuff for my parents which was such a blessing!!  I had also been struggling with my own health issue and the same day that I got my COMPS results (which I passed with distinction), God also resolved it, too.  He also has been healing some hurt that I have experienced due to a painful relationship. 
Here is my only conundrum:  since God has been moving so greatly in all of these situations, I feel selfish asking for Him to help resovle more.  I have been experiencing worry over some personal things like my future job and housing situation, not to mention another situation about my future.
I also LOVE how God works things out though.  Today's sermon at church I really related too.  It was about Hagar.  I completely can relate to how she felt in the desert.  It was just a few fews ago that I was at that same low point and couldn't see a way.  But God was there.  He never left me.  I just couldn't see it at the time.  Now, I'm working through these other things that are more personal.  Looking now, I find it rather ridiculous that I haven't asked for God's guidance in these personal issues.  He has moved so greatly and mightly in these areas, why can't I trust Him to take care of this too.  The truth is, I can.  He said in his word that He never fails.  So now it's up to me to take these areas of concern to Him and let him have control.